So today, like many days I am being taught a lesson and not really enjoying it. I have adopted Philippians 4:11-13 as my life verses. I chose these verses long ago, not only because they are found in my favorite book of the Bible, but also so they could serve as a challenge to me. The verses read:
11. Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned that in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. 12. I know how to be abased, and how to abound: everwhere and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and suffer need. 13. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
So you may ask, What lesson am I learning...another lesson in contentment. It seems that no matter how many times God tries to teach me this I never seem to fully grasp this concept. I am aware I have issues with contentment, so I am not in denial. I suppose maybe that is the first step. Just to clear it up for any of you wondering, my contentment issues do not stem from my marriage, I couldn't be happier. In fact that is the only thing I am truly content with. Drew is better than I deserve, (I also acknowledge that I am difficult.) No, my issues stem from my place in life. Paul was in prison and he still chose to be content. Why can't I be content in this apartment, in my job, in my financial state? I don't know. I am pretty sure this lesson in contentment is accompanied with a lesson in patience, but that is another blog for another day. For now, pray that I can move past this hurdle and learn this lesson God is trying to teach me.
Contentment is an elusive thing...something I have to pray about as well. I have been married 14 years with two beautiful girls, finally a stay home mom, like I always wanted to be, living in a nice home and I too, struggle with contentment. Remember that we have an enemy....Satan...and discontentment comes from him. Pray through it everyday. Ask God to help you focus on the blessings. That is what I do.
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