Where my heart is...

So recently I have been struggling with where I am in life. Let me first begin by telling you a little about where Drew and I are specifically. First and foremost we have two very exciting things taking place. One we should be closing on our house before the end on the month. This purgatory of renting has not been my idea of fun, but I feel like God gave us this experience for a number of reasons. I feel like number one this season has taught me a little bit more in my journey of impatience, and has hopefully made me a more understanding person which will translate into making me a better person to rent from should Drew and I decide to have rental properties in the future. We really have had an easy time of it, with the lady who currently owns our house allowing us to make it our own. Secondly for those of you who are unaware, Drew and I recently moved our membership to Shoal Creek Baptist Church. This was not a decision we made lightly and I will say that it was a very hard decision to leave our former church. We loved so many of the people there and much of who we are spiritually was a result of growing up there. God gives us seasons in life, and we both knew that season was over. Although hesitant at first, I know God knew exactly what He was doing in sending us to Shoal Creek. I don't think either of us could have imagined what God had and continues to have in store for us here. In just a few months God is growing and working in both of our lives in ways I never could have imagined. For the first time in our married life we are in a "grownup" class and have taken a break from teaching the sweet little ones. Although I know that children's ministry is where my heart lies, I also feel like God wants me to take a step back from teaching Sunday School for a while so He can use other couples our age to help grow and strengthen our walk with Him. I am excited to be teaming up with my sweet friend Amy Hallagin once again to teach Preschool Choir in the evenings, though. This is the first time I have done a class with preschoolers, but not the first time I have worked with Amy, we make a good team and with the good Lord on our side I think we can handle it.

Having said all this I find myself in a very strange place. I don't know that I would call it a place of discontent, but rather a place of confusion. I don't really know where I am supposed to be. My heart wants to be at home working on my small craft business, which with God's blessing has been doing remarkably well,as well as at home cooking and cleaning for my hardworking husband. At the same time, it is hard to step out with something like this because some weeks may be great, and other weeks I may not sell a thing. I find myself sitting at my desk at work thinking about all the things I could be doing at home and wondering what I am doing with my life. I graduate in December (hopefully) and I am constantly bombarded with the question of what I am going to do with a Communications degree. I DON"T KNOW! I understand that God had me take that path for a reason, but that reason has yet to be revealed to me. In all honesty the driving force behind my college career was a promise I made to my grandfather that I would finish and finish strong.  Really there is no other reason, I chose Communications because it interested me and if I was going to study something for 4....5 years it might as well be something fun. Having said all that Communications, being a secretary-- neither one of those things makes me feel as fulfilled as it does when I have an opportunity to stay home and clean the house from top to bottom before Drew gets home. I love having a hot meal on the table for him and I get a tiny thrill in the pit of my stomach each time I see that someone has ordered something else from my little crafting business. That is where I want to be, but alas it seems like the whole world feels like you should be in the work place until you have kids. What about I love Lucy? She wasn't out wasting her life away pushing papers while Ricky sang La Bamba, no she was at home cleaning and getting into trouble with her BFF Ethel. My Ethel lives in Nashville now, but I am sure we would find a way to do something that would make Drew say "KIMBERLY, you got some splainin' to do!"

This is where I am, where my heart is, and a little of where I want to be. Prayers and words of wisdom are appreciated.